My husband listened to me, 94% sure. I thought he was sleeping and didn’t understand what I was saying, but he validated me.

The thoughts before I go to bed tend to be a little drab, and I get self conscious, like I didn’t do my best and need validation. Our pillow talk consisted of me asking why I feel so uncertain around him? Do you really like me? It’s been almost 8 years, why am I not comfortable around you yet?

I blamed it on the beginning of our relationship and not taking pictures together. If your MySpace or Facebook profile picture was not a selfie(a word that wasn’t even in the dictionary yet) of you and your lover, were you even official? We never took pictures together, I always felt too awkward to ask. Maybe it was because if things went south I’d have a whole lot to delete? I’m not sure. Either way, I felt uncomfortable asking to take them.

We went and got ice cream. I asked “Can I take a picture of you and Ian?” He asked, “Why don’t we take a selfie?”